we want our film to be beautiful not re-a-lis-tic

today is the weirdest day in news in so long: the sri lankan tamil general aint dead, the california supreme court is all wonky, mike tyson's baby died, a canadian guy ate a seal hearts, they finished the mouse genome (THE WHOLE THING)

putting all this together makes our world seem so weird, plus how weird is the tmz-news? understatement has never been used better

kafka------->TMZ



last night i relived the deadliest experience of my life and then woke up

ust fown that guy shockeringloomtown!'s blog (that guidedbyvoices song) and it makes me miss punk music, that guy is so nostalgic he reminds me of my dad --sorry if you're that guy i dont mean nothing bad bout neither mdad nor the guy just the emphaticnostalgia


whatis hislefthand upto


how fucking good is jg ballard? super legit is more like it

the basketball season is coming to a end and kinda glad that i'll be able to relate to people again, because only weirdoes (dear-woes) love dwight howard and ray allen and anderson varejao . that's prollythe worst part about the tom-deal, not getting to talk about sports and man stuff like that (read: sadface); fuck im still whining about that but who aint

why would anyone want to confront a grotesque animal? ew yelch, but i guess i would. okayokay, yeah: a/ anomalous species == = == super fascinating, ask people who like dinosaurs and lichen and vampires; b/ it's cool to like things other people dont for some reason that's only true when you also communicate that what other people like is <<> (IF PEOPLEmyfriendsspecifically MADEMORE ART BASED ON CONFINING, LIMITING DIMENSIONS [I E SOMETHING VERY HORIZONTAL] I WOULD PUT IT HERE*) * * * S T A R * * * * * * M A N * * * on the above apostrophe, refer to something like the drone song on that illinoise sufjan stevens album, or the entiresong crepesculo sul mare for a longer(in duration, not definitely length) obra i can't afford for things to keep crazying on me, i'm going to be crazy if it happens too fast, i need time to interpret and get it back out apparently prom is happening this weekend, it makes me think of dancing, which is a great thing to me on account of its form plus idea (thanks plato! first shoutout): neitzche says 'i only believe in a god that knows how to dance' and then mr miyagi's affirmation 'never trust a spiritual guide who cannot dance' miyagi <--> nietzsche (pronounced like tallahasee)

the other day i talked about communication-in-the-modernera-of-instantaneity-and-the-proliferated-internet to young furly danny poceta, i think he dug it; he's mass diggable ten points danny poceta i wonder how we'll turn out he and i and her and us. not good probably 'internet silence'


pd. is there a better way to link (better) music

and napoleon and genghis kahn and hitler tried and mussolini too

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today madi macnabb comes home, tuesday, the archetype people ask me about, school's over, evan's my cousin,

alexa's going to north carolina firstclass every weekend with some gaypsychiatrist primohusband, tragedy no one reads shakespeare, shes definilly going to move there or someody'll get knived in the end or midsection, the end is always written in the beginning

gretchen from faust stopped being the woman--i found the futurewoman the perfectwoman she's the untagged hottie in facebook pictures, master and the margarita was a diff'rent era too,

drunk off of corona and awkardness last night and when i drove home i saw a car on fire on the sidewalk and a bum leaning towards it parallel and not facing it,

someday i only want to buy beer and gas and dinners, shopping list for my italian birthday: also include warm jackets

pd. i watchd 'blindness' tonight and compared to reading it for this, that movie was real (try all the names maybe better)

didnt leave nobody but the baby

kiss played on american idol

things I recommend, tastes to define a pop novel character: heart of darkness, blood meridian, egon schiele, liszt sonata in b minor, pelham 123 --vanishing point, janice dickinson, codein, gustave dore, free beer, the sri lankan civil war , kiss +the band+, coming off codein

G R U N E W A L D, too

i run to the sea! didnae you hear? it was bleedin, srs

i just have a lot of feelings today

got ticketed today for texxt-while-driving today, i tried to explain i was reading the satanic verses, on account of it was in my lap but i think the arresting++issuing officer --Zed Rayyan-- just thought i was a weirdo, he wrote the whole ticket,
came back and we talked about his name, he's from new zealand and people usually guess he's middle-eastern (intending syrian, on account of there was that militarized zone in syria when releavant whitepeople people used to fight in syria x-nmber of years ago)
i guessed asia, not that he rippedup the ticket over our flirt

tow emailed this essay i wrote to this piddly publication lady at ucsd hadley mendoza and i tried to go to the interview but shitcameup
rode in a hurry with my bag of juices and assay of who i am as a potential to be exhibited for their fanbase. it was the closest i've come to having to see the realname in print wheww

this mother fucker on american idol just tried to cover sam cooke change gon' come; shit's irreparable ----===---> E X I S T E R E : can white dudes do black dude songs? sympathy? empathy? imaginative empathy ? creative sympathy? centuries of subjugation and marginalization?

girlfriend's afraid i'm in love with tam, if only she knew what lies beneath my temple of doom, if only she knew i know what projection is, ten to won they go lookin for each otha after this

dark night of the soul

i knew (+knew+) a simple soldier boy who grinned at life in emptee joy
slept soundly thru ther winter dark
and whistled early with the lark

in winter trenches cowwwed and glum
wiv crumps and lice and lack of rum
he but a pullet through his brain
no one spoke of him again

you smugged-faced krowds with kindling eye
who cheer
who cheer
when soldier lads march by
sneak home
sneak home
sneak home and pray you'll never know
the hell where youf and laughter go



^there's some dead-ass sentiments, try that much sorrow in the sext-genration

have to analyze vonnegut these next few weeks, never realized how weird it would be to do wthat with anything by him except player piano and cat's cradle, but its
the first

time i've heard about fate in a long time (not including any of the traditional european authors or anyone before chaucer) because it's a closed-minded idea i figure, gestalt is way more accurate

gah, i miss bulgakov and hegel and li po and my guys, my dudes: (being in) real-life thinking is all convoluted with emotions and discrepencies and confrontations and lovin and dudes with money and dudes without

pd. I'M A STRONG DEAD MAN

i'm used to lots of things; i work at wal-mart

bullshit

you got the horn so why dont you blow it

destitution is the exact same as prostitution except for the spelling

and jesus says teach with your actions not your words, but people are innately consumed wif demselves right, so how can you teach them except to confront them, fucking jesus didnae account for technological revolution, material revolution: hisshit's antiqwuated. people aint gotta pay attn to your behavior ander decisionmaking processees theys concerned with how it affects them baby how's it look? what's her profile page look like? google'im before you go out with im

that dandeacon song snookered is so blink182 it's weird, like, even dandeacon has cutesy dumb emotions. that make sme feel important, like motherfucker my shit's so complex only fucking townes van zandt could write about this shit, or steve morrissey maybe. that makes me feel important, like motherfucker i foigured out that everbody's got about the same feelings, even a genius is the same genus

my love is so clear that birds fly into it and die

i feel lately like i'm made of romantic nostalgia about tam and the summation of llaaaaloofness and not this affirmative drama where sides are taken am i allies or axis is she intravenous into my dumb heart

listen to Crooked Man

in conc. the bottel>the wine? who knows

angst is like the prefabricated emotion for anyone learning gettin aware

i want to live a range life

read another paulo coelho book it's called once minutes i read it in spanish it's very sexy and i hate her artist lover but she stays with me discharge----->? period listen to hide and seek by shinju gumi dig this shit, i am so tired i hate smoking mote sometimes ( most of the times) rich is home and we're gon to argument-collossade him about the sri lankan rebellions he's fucked (but not in that way, he knows i still dont want it)

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WHOAWOWPOW EVERYTHING RIGHT HERE IN YOUR MUG red rum river spent today, racing reeling rising from the heat of yesterday hundreds of hours of fistfuls or of memories taste like pot: tired in a gray hunched room tomorrow knocking for negligence there is no gray ===--===

bert said there is no gray/grey area with joshdrilling, "he's black and white" WHOAA MAN i just wannt live a range life the most shared story on the bbc right now is about sexting in california there are at least five or six revolutions being reported simultaneously, military brutality, a bitch who got executed in israel, and that's more important WHICH ONE OF THESE IS OMNIPRESENT sexcellence: bahnsn